I’m now just over half way on the year long self portrait photography project (to take a self portrait every day for a year).
Recently, I’ve started to feel sick of the whole thing.
It’s especially difficult when I’m feeling exhausted and poorly to try an arty approach every day. Some days I struggle to even get anything in focus as my arms can get weak so quickly the camera starts to shake. Not to mention the red light for focusing giving me a headache if I take shots over and over to try in order to get a shot where I don’t look like a total monster!
I was worried when I started the project that people might interpet it as some knd of vanity on my part – when in fact quite the opposite is true. I’m quite self concious about my looks and it’s been a real test. In some ways it’s helped to face a fear and get to know/accept my own appearance. Which is quite an achievement when with CFS/ME you don’t have the energy to look after your appearance much!
Being half way through has given me a little boost to try and make fresh attempts at being a bit more creative. The object afer all was to try and learn from the experience. What attracted me to the project was the idea of an artist tackling the same subject over and over, finding new ways to approach it.
(If I can’t be creative every day I still have a record of my first (ish) year with CFS/ME. )
Six months of self portraits is quite an achievement considering that when I started I didn’t joining the official Flickr 365days group for the project for fear I would only last a week.
It’s small steps – but I started playing with the manual function on our digital camera this week. I love Rock Star Vanity’s over exposure look and although I am a loooong way off her talent and skills (now there is a real photographer!), playing with exposure is an interesting starting point to this next phase of the project. I also have to find creative ways to take pictures with an ever dwindling amount of daylight which I have depended on up till now.
Let’s hope I can keep it up and keep on with it as an artistic challenge!
ALL of my 183 daily self portraits so far: